Tuesday,

Today, I have come to a conclusion that in reality I have not much money at all left.
But God is higher, and he has given me a revelation that I dont need food or money all I need is him.
I have realised that I take food for granted and I take the life I have for granted. And I am in a time now where its all God. I cant take control of anything, I can apply for jobs and pray and pray and pray. But that will be in Gods timing.

My faith has grown so strong over the past 2 weeks. I have experienced so much that some people wouldnt even experience in their whole lifetime.
I have learnt the meaning of trust, and where to put my hope when things are hard and difficult.
The fact that God is higher than anything and everything that does happen, happens for a reason.

I have begun to understand myself and how I react and respond to certain situations. For example I will avoid 'CONFRONTATION' because I dont want to offend someone or get them angry.

Wherever I go I am talking to people and meeting new people. Heaps of people say that I would be a great motivational speaker or pastor. But it all depends on what God has for me.
I still cnt believe how hurt this place is, but i'm happy because I have found my home church and i have made lots of nice friends :)
And also i was shocked at how real they are which is something that is really on my heart.

Last week I went to a connect group, it was amazing. The people there were just incredible, and i was so blessed to have met them.
We all prayed and this girl shared her testimony and it was amazing how much love the group had towards her I just couldnt believe it.

i met this guy called Michael and we talked for a while. He is really nice and is starting up a buisness to help people and he asked me if i want to be involved. I said ' im really interested' Jumping up and down haha like i do...
And then yaaa....

It was awesome, this lovely lady dropped me and Rosel home. And we chatted and stuff.
On Friday I went to this interview at 5am, pretty crazy... But I met this lady and she was lovely, so nice. She said 'Wow.. we get on so well! do u think we met in our past lives??' and im like um.... im not sure..
So i didnt really understand, but i gave her the chance to explain to me what she believes in. She was talking about her angels and her guides. And Energy and other things like that. It was interesting and I prayed and asked God about it and he said stay away. So thats okay, have to follow Gods way not anyone elses way. She opened up to me about her child hood. And man she was so hurt I couldnt even believe it. She was happy and bubbly but the pain and grief i could see in her was really sad. Yet, there was nothing I could do apart from pray for her and be a friend. I couldve judged what she said to me and walked off, but no I didnt. Because God is bigger than any circumstance or situation. And I know that some way or another he will do something from this situation.

But, you see if I did walk away.. why would I?
judging? fearful of what would happen that I wouldnt have control over?
But hold on a second my life isnt mine, and it says in the bible that if you hold on to your life you will loose it but if you let it go you will find me.
So I let it all go and said okay God, i will sit here and listen to this girl but help me. Help me to not judge, understand and love her. She may be different and have another faith, but I can still be her friend and be Gods light and shine ever so brightly. I just need to pray for strength so i can stick up for God bt in a calm and gentle way.

On the way home from church on Sunday night I met this guy on the Bus.. (Have to take every opportunity i can get to show them some of Gods love)
So i talked to him and picked up tht he was a little handicap, and so i chatted and asked him what he does and where he works. And he told me and he really loved talking to me.
Its amazing, because love always finds a way and if you do everything in love then you will be able to communicate with people and touch peoples lives.
The power of love shouldnt be limited. The power of generosity, kindness, peace, patience, and understanding and listening go beyond all measures.

Yesterday I was reading Corinthians and it says in there that we have 1 mouth and 2 ears so we should do twice as much listening as to opposed to talking.

And i just feel that so many people are urging to talk but they dont know how to, are afraid or nobody approaches them. But once you do approach them then they want to share with you their heart, dreams and there past. Most of the time they want to talk to someone who will just listen without saying anything or judging them.

Man im so pumped and God is so good! And im looking forward to miracles I will be writing on here in about a weeks time.

Hope you are all well! missing you so much, and love you all so much!

xxooox