2nd to last day before MELBOURNE!

Okay, so i am leaving to go to Melbourne in 1 day time now. And my flight is at 7:50am, and my mum is very lucky hahahaaha.. because she is taking me to the airport at 4:30am. But im sure she doesnt mind because she will be the last one to see me :D

I have been re-evaluating my life lately, looking at the mindsets i have developed and looking at certain things i do and why i do them. I have come to realize why i do them and what they are, over the past 7 days since i talked to my amazing beautiful friend.

1. I constantly look at people for approval, and when i dont get it i judge them.

2. I am scared of not being able to control my life, and think im not good enough to do what i want to do.

3. I have been expecting pastors to to talk to me and love me, but i havent exactly stood in their shoes and wondered what its like for them.

4. I have become familiar with my life, my world and what God wants me to do. Familiar with my family, my city, and genuinely the beauty of life.

5. Depend on people and their help and dont trust God enough

And after looking at the things i do, i have thought okay.

Well this is me, i am a sinner.

I muck up, i do things sometimes i probably shouldnt but at the end of the day God is God, And i am human. And no matter how hard I try to pretend like I'm perfect and have everything together . Its just going to make my problem more larger than it is and if i hide it away from my friends then they arent able to help me deal with it. But in that you need trust, and even in church it is hard to find people that you can trust fully.

I have learnt that you need to love people and compliment and share a little about yourself so that trust is able to be built.

For example in Matthew, it talks about how if you build a house on a rock it wont collapse. In this case love, respect, honesty ... are all apart of that rock and once you have that rock built you are able to start building your mansion :) (which may not be the prettiest mansion, but it will be large and it will take hard work and dedication to clean it out, and making sure the junk stays out.)

I am going to live purposely, and do things on purpose to change my mindset.

I am going to love aggressively and live each day as it comes.

To look at people in a positive way and see what is beautiful about their character, not look at them and say oh i dont like this or avoid them.

I am a part of the church and the people are my family. If i judge them i dont have a chance to love them.

No matter what someone does, no matter what their position in the church is they are human and Gods second commandment is to love your neighbour as yourself.

They are people and they arent perfect, and if they do muck up in someway i think its important for eveybody to encourage them and support them because they help bring life to the church.

I have also come to see that all that matters is God. And in Melbourne on a number of occasions its going to be only God and Me. He is the one who has all the power, life and love.

But im looking forward to leaving it wil be good!

Thanks for reading!

:)